So I had a chance today to get out by myself for a little bit with no one but myself. Mark and Q were sick so they stayed at home while I dropped the boys off with my sister and went to Charming Charlie's and Target. It was STRANGE...I am not sure I could really say that I truly enjoyed it but it was nice. I just felt lost ... as if I didn't really know what to do with no one with me. I just wandered around looking at stuff.
I got Q some socks and NutriGrain bars, Mark some Mucinex, a clearance pair of panties for myself... $2.10. I looked at and tried on 2 cute pajama outfits but didn't get either...I couldn't bring myself to spend money on them. Why is it so easy to buy the boys a pair of pajamas....yet I can't bring myself to spend the money on something for myself...and I need it more than them?!?! It frustrates me that I'm like that. I got home and wished I had bought them.
Anyways...it was just weird being out alone. Maybe I just need to have more practice?!?? Yea, I think that may be the case!!! :) Awesome part of my day...got to spend some sweet time with my sister, Jenn!
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Do I?
I have felt nudged to start a blog, so I am beginning this blogging journey mainly as a way to air out the days thoughts but also to share with you what God is doing in my life and be an encouragement to others.
The Lord your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17
This verse has come to me twice today so it must mean that God wants me to hear it. I definitely need a reminder that God delights in me, as I have always found it hard to believe that anyone would find me to be worthy of delight, especially God! How silly though for me to think that ... He is my Creator and Sustainer...why would a creator not delight in his creation?!
As I read, re-read, and read again this verse...many questions come to my mind. Do I truly believe that God is with me? Do I really believe He is mighty to save? Do I truly believe He loves me, delights in me and rejoices over me with singing? These may seem like totally easy questions to answer...but when we really look deep in our hearts, we may not always be able to answer yes to them. For me, today...these are hard to answer a yes with. I feel discouraged and broken...but I totally know that, in His Word, is where I need to be...seeking Him is my only way out of this pit!
I often feel like a failure as a mother, a wife and a child of God ... on so many days ... but I know this is a journey. Sanctification is a process in which I must be patient and obedient. I feel Him drawing me to come closer to Him and I desire to follow His leadings.
The Lord your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17
This verse has come to me twice today so it must mean that God wants me to hear it. I definitely need a reminder that God delights in me, as I have always found it hard to believe that anyone would find me to be worthy of delight, especially God! How silly though for me to think that ... He is my Creator and Sustainer...why would a creator not delight in his creation?!
As I read, re-read, and read again this verse...many questions come to my mind. Do I truly believe that God is with me? Do I really believe He is mighty to save? Do I truly believe He loves me, delights in me and rejoices over me with singing? These may seem like totally easy questions to answer...but when we really look deep in our hearts, we may not always be able to answer yes to them. For me, today...these are hard to answer a yes with. I feel discouraged and broken...but I totally know that, in His Word, is where I need to be...seeking Him is my only way out of this pit!
I often feel like a failure as a mother, a wife and a child of God ... on so many days ... but I know this is a journey. Sanctification is a process in which I must be patient and obedient. I feel Him drawing me to come closer to Him and I desire to follow His leadings.
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